Through the Valley

September 18, 2020

I spent some time camping in SC and took some pictures by the lake. It was a time of healing and fun and I’m glad to share some of that with you here.

Dear Ones, 

It’s been a few months since I’ve been able to properly write and so I’ve been silent not just here on this blog but on all social media platforms. 

I ran into a medication complication that brought on the most intense food and especially sugar cravings I’ve ever experienced. It was unrelenting. I found myself thinking about food all the time. I found myself so obsessed with eating I would think and fantasize about food at least every five minutes. It was unsustainable and overwhelming. In that state it felt almost painful not to eat non-stop and on the other side I was overeating and feeling the uncomfortable over-full feeling. 

All this to say that what was going on in my mind and body was unsustainable for my peace of mind.  So began another few months working through the balancing act which comes with a medication change. 

I am grateful that I am currently feeling stable and finding a peaceful mind and body balance. It’s been 3ish weeks and I’m hopeful for continued strength and energy. I am continuing to work on recording in Alaska. It’s been raining quite frequently which means working around those times in order to get a semi-decent recording. 

During those months of medication stabilization I fell into a turbulent and strong depressive episode in which I didn’t spend any quality time with Alaska, making her beautiful, caring for her, let alone myself. I can happily report that she’s once again twinkling with lights, the diffuser keeps her smelling good and the new plants add a little whimsy to the mix. I work to make Alaska the home she and I both deserve. 

I hardly picked up my guitar during those valley months but have found the last few weeks filled with music. I’m listening to music again, playing more often and generally tweaking pieces that run though my mind. 

I’m grateful for another day of energy and inspiration. I wait in hope that the beauty that I see today — that I didn’t see a few weeks ago— is only just building. That I will again find myself awestruck, dancing under the stars, spending long twinkling nights creating something for us. 

Thanks for reading this update, all over the place as it is. I will be writing you again soon.

Until then, 

Remona Jeannine